I was given the gift of abstinence. I say a "gift" because it came about because I was scared. I thought I was dying; literally. I thought I had serious liver damage. I mean, I drank for 30 years. So I stopped. But it turned out to be diverticulitis. Still serious, but not life threatening. 

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However, I never looked at the underlying issues that had been the reasons for my drinking. And so, even though I had not had a drink in over two years, I was able to still destroy my life. I had an affair. It was not intentional. I was not looking for it. But I did allow it to happen. I have destroyed my marriage. My wife hates me. My son hates me. I have lost the love and respect of the woman that I was having the affair with. I am alone.

A sober life is truly amazing.

Hi all i am new here i am and quite confused i am about the sponser and the 12 steps of Na i was wondering if someone could help me i attended two meetings so far last week i have but i didn't hear anything about sponser or anything i never done the 12 step before can someone help me please thank you