Could I? I mean, i understand i CAN'T do this another day, i want to have a clear mind but i also feel like that isnt enough and if whatever else i am not putting into this, i won't be successful.
However, I never looked at the underlying issues that had been the reasons for my drinking. And so, even though I had not had a drink in over two years, I was able to still destroy my life. I had an affair. It was not intentional. I was not looking for it. But I did allow it to happen. I have destroyed my marriage. My wife hates me. My son hates me. I have lost the love and respect of the woman that I was having the affair with. I am alone.
I was given the gift of abstinence. I say a "gift" because it came about because I was scared. I thought I was dying; literally. I thought I had serious liver damage. I mean, I drank for 30 years. So I stopped. But it turned out to be diverticulitis. Still serious, but not life threatening.
When I very first got clean I was 19 weeks pregnant and was getting clean for not only my pregnancy, but for many other reasons as well. I did very, very well for the first 6 months of my recovery....then I gave birth.
When I very first got clean I was 19 weeks pregnant and was getting clean for not only my pregnancy, but for many other reasons as well. I did very, very well for the first 6 months of my recovery....then I gave birth.
Hello. I'm new on this site. I just wanted to say hey to everyone and anyone. I'm in my early 30s and I live in MN. I'm not new to AA but I've only been sober for almost 5 months. I feel different this time though. I have a sponsor.
For now, my higher power is all life's connection, the universe, Love, and Xena: Warrior Princess. I'm close to being an athiest, but not quite. The higher power thing is something to work out.
I'm feeling positive today because I feel so much freer when I'm hangover-free:)
Hey, my name is Crystal and I am an addict. I have been clean for 33 days. I just joined this site and thought I would make a brief post to introduce myself . I have no clue how this works yet.
To me when my life is unmanageable. The bills are not paid, I'm surrounded in chaos and violence, be it verbal or physical. I'm a mess mentally, physically and spirituality.
To me when my life is unmanageable. The bills are not paid, I'm surrounded in chaos and violence, be it verbal or physical. I'm a mess mentally, physically and spirituality.
To me when my life is unmanageable. The bills are not paid, I'm surrounded in chaos and violence, be it verbal or physical. I'm a mess mentally, physically and spirituality.
