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Just for today - November 24

"We entertained the thought that staying clean was not paying off and the old thinking stirred up self-pity, resentment, and anger."   Basic Text pg. 98

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Pam's recovery journal's picture

my opiate addiction

Step Number: 
Topic: 
Surrender
Question: 
What am I afraid of about the concept of surrender, if anything? What convinces me that I can't use successfully anymore?

the main thing that convinces me that i cant use sucessfully anymore is the fact that i dont like who i became when i was using. i lied to everyone around me including those whom i loved the most.

Pam's recovery journal's picture

my opiate addiction

Step Number: 
Topic: 
Surrender
Question: 
What am I afraid of about the concept of surrender, if anything? What convinces me that I can't use successfully anymore?

the main thing that convinces me that i cant use sucessfully anymore is the fact that i dont like who i became when i was using. i lied to everyone around me including those whom i loved the most.

Pam's recovery journal's picture

my opiate addiction

Step Number: 
Topic: 
Moving on
Question: 
How do I know it's time to move on?

tuesday 12-9-16    days clean - 51

Pam's recovery journal's picture

my opiate addiction

Step Number: 
Topic: 
Moving on
Question: 
How do I know it's time to move on?

tuesday 12-9-16    days clean - 51

How to conquer my fear

I didn't know I needed to. I was to much making arrangements to make a daily planner. Just so I wouldn't have free time on my hands so when I quit it wouldn't be so hard on me. Then I started to read that fear was a big contributor to forcing people into relapse. And it all made perfect sense to me and as I sat back to listen to my thoughts , I heard myself scared of different things as well. I realized I too was scared of my fear. I feared fear also. And if I didn't face my fear then I was going to have minimal results in effort given.

I'm still chained with my own shackles of addiction.

This is my first time posting. I'm not sure if I'm doing this right either. So excuse me if I'm wrong. 
I've never been to a NA meeting. I want to go but am scared to go alone. I know until I do then ill never get a sponsor nor will I find my recovery. Yes, I'm still an active user. I don't want to be. I miss my 14 month old daughter and want to see and hold her. I'm tired of being a slave to heroin. 
asobermamaw's picture

How am I powerless

Step Number: 
Topic: 
The disease of addiction
Question: 
What does "the disease of addiction" mean to me?

  The disease of addiction means to me to never have another easy day. To never have another day free from thinking about getting and using drugs. The disease of addiction is like a death sentence to me.

asobermamaw's picture

How am I powerless

Step Number: 
Topic: 
The disease of addiction
Question: 
What does "the disease of addiction" mean to me?

  The disease of addiction means to me to never have another easy day. To never have another day free from thinking about getting and using drugs. The disease of addiction is like a death sentence to me.

kat2488's picture

My powerlessness

Step Number: 
Topic: 
Powerlessness
Question: 
Over what, exactly, am I powerless?

Powerless from getting myself out of this deep black hole.

No control over thinking I need a substance to make me feel better

loss of control from doing what I say and doing what I say

To be continued....

Who is in the mirror?

I find myself looking inward over the past few days, and to be honest I have no idea who I am seeing in the mirror.  I see an adict, a lyer, thief, and many other horrible things.  Finally reaching the point of being sick and tired, and wanting to see my old self again I called my doctor today and for the first time, I admitted to having a problem and to see what options I have.  After a bit I found out they will send me to a outpatient clinic where I will be given medication to help with the problem, also I will attend meetings, drug test, and even a shrink to help with other issues which

Who is in the mirror?

I find myself looking inward over the past few days, and to be honest I have no idea who I am seeing in the mirror.  I see an adict, a lyer, thief, and many other horrible things.  Finally reaching the point of being sick and tired, and wanting to see my old self again I called my doctor today and for the first time, I admitted to having a problem and to see what options I have.  After a bit I found out they will send me to a outpatient clinic where I will be given medication to help with the problem, also I will attend meetings, drug test, and even a shrink to help with other issues which

redbird1966's picture

My addiction

Step Number: 
Topic: 
Powerlessness
Question: 
Over what, exactly, am I powerless?

I am completely powerless over my addiction.wh

Confused

I don't understand this website very well. It says to get the worksheets you have to go to the public forum? What happens if you want to work the steps but you don't know where to get them?

jen dubb's picture

Opiates vs Methadone

Step Number: 
Topic: 
The disease of addiction
Question: 
Has my disease been active recently? In what way?

I use heroin. I've tried to cold turkey it and went through hell. I always ended up using. I've been cutting back on heroin and raising my methadone. Isn't methadone a drug as well?

Nycki_ODell's picture

Being powerless

Step Number: 
Topic: 
Powerlessness
Question: 
Over what, exactly, am I powerless?

I am powerless over my addiction.  I let my head do all the thinking and not the lords (HP for me).  I am powerless over family that do not think I need meetings.  I am powerless over my children, I have let them do whatever so long, that now I ca

Nycki_ODell's picture

Being powerless

Step Number: 
Topic: 
Powerlessness
Question: 
Over what, exactly, am I powerless?

I am powerless over my addiction.  I let my head do all the thinking and not the lords (HP for me).  I am powerless over family that do not think I need meetings.  I am powerless over my children, I have let them do whatever so long, that now I ca

Texastreat's picture

Is there such a thing as a "Part-time Addict?"

Step Number: 
Topic: 
Spiritual principles
Question: 
Custom question

Am I just a "Part-time Addict"?

The Benefits of 12 Steps of Narcotic Anonymous

The 12 steps of Narcotics Anonymous or Alcoholic Anonymous are usually introduced in recovering alcoholics and addicts during their stay in drug rehab. Some inhabitants respond to the 12 steps with doubt, and even though the 12 steps are not a scientific method or an evidence-based program of addiction treatment, they do provide a lot of importance to people new to upturn and are a worthwhile insertion in any alcohol or drug treatment program. Here are some benefits of 12 Steps Support Groups.

Yogiart's picture

Drug and alcohol addiction

Step Number: 
Topic: 
The disease of addiction
Question: 
What is it like when I'm obsessed with something? Does my thinking follow a pattern? Describe.

When I am obsessed with something, I can't function normally. I can't listen to other people talking. I can't be productive. 

Yogiart's picture

Drug and alcohol addiction

Step Number: 
Topic: 
The disease of addiction
Question: 
Has my disease been active recently? In what way?

Yes. . . 

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