SiksikaAngel2025

Hi! My name is Brenna. I have been on this recovery journey for quite awhile. My most recent drug of choice was cough tabs. They are the hardest things to get off of. I quit methamphetamines on October 12, 2020. My ex-fiance assaulted me and we moved to Texas to continue our sobriety. I didn't drink. I did take pills though. I was always cross addicted to something else. My ex fiance ended up leaving me a year later. Due to differences between us. I also spent 34 years drinking. I never thought I would quit drinking. I still remember saying I will live by the bottle and die by the bottle. One day after I turned 40, I annoyed myself when I drank. It was harder to become drunk. I had to put up with myself. I drank more to tolerate the drug addicts I was around. I have gone out a few times in the past couple years to drink and go gamble. It just is not fun anymore. I would prefer to be home with my 8 year old son. He is my lil miracle baby. When he was born, I felt complete. I have 6 other children. They all suffered through my addictions and poor choices. I did have some sober time. I just never followed through on my recovery material. I did attend two treatment centers. Poundmakers Treatment Lodge in St. Albert, Alberta Canada in 2008. Ollalla Treatment Center in Washington State in 2019. I didn't finish Ollalla. I walked out because the drama among people was difficult to sit with. My ex-fiance was still using and I just had him pick me up. I am on this healthy journey as well. I use a lot of supplements. I am on a non-stimulant ADHD medicine. I also was a crack addict. Why I went to treatment in 2008. I have been clean off crack cocaine since 2009. I lapsed in February 2009. I found this site and I knew if I wanted to get serious about getting completely sober, that I needed to begin my journaling and to find a site I can use to record my daily rants. My goal is to not even use any over the counter medicine. I use Kratom for pain i have. Its a supplement from the Asian countries.