Only part of my previous sharing was posted:
However, I never looked at the underlying issues that had been the reasons for my drinking. And so, even though I had not had a drink in over two years, I was able to still destroy my life. I had an affair. It was not intentional. I was not looking for it. But I did allow it to happen. I have destroyed my marriage. My wife hates me. My son hates me. I have lost the love and respect of the woman that I was having the affair with. I am alone.
So now, I have surrendered my life to God. I have a sponser. I go to meetings. I study. I read. I pray. I hope. Still, there are those days when I think, "Why go on?'
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I totally still have those
I totally still have those "why go on?" days too and it's been over 3 years. I know the "alone," because it's most the time I'm not at a meeting. More and more often though, when I'm alone and at peace; fishing or walking, I get a little dose of my higher power. I never feel alone in those little moments and they seem to be increasing.
Falstaff